tr.v. a·ban·doned, a·ban·don·ing, a·ban·dons2. To give up by leaving or ceasing to operate or inhabit, especially as a result of danger or other impending threat: abandoned the ship.
3. To surrender one's claim to, right to, or interest in; give up entirely.
4. To cease trying to continue; desist from: abandoned the search for the missing hiker.
5. To yield (oneself) completely, as to emotion.
n.
1. Unbounded enthusiasm; exuberance.
2. A complete surrender of inhibitions.
This is what I desire. To yield myself to God... to give up entirely that which is holding me back from fully experiencing God.
In the past few weeks there has been a pretty obvious battle between my flesh and spirit. I have been trying to ignore the conviction from the Holy Spirit but as many of you know, the Spirit does not grow weary.
My conviction is this. The computer.
I have been sucked into the daily habit of checking my Facebook and email about every hour or less. I also have been pulled back towards my past struggle of wasting my time watching pointless television online. Yes, there is a balance and I am fully aware of what that balance feels like but if you are not giving yourself to God first that balance can quickly tilt to one side; the bad, unhealthy side.
I am writing this to simply verbalize and confess my sin to you all. I want to be held accountable.
Therefore, after this blog post I will be abandoning the computer because it is an impending threat to my relationship with and growth in God. I will update the blog only about Zeke and only on Kevin’s computer with his permission. I will not be using email or Facebook. I will not being searching the web for recipes, or whatever ever else. Last night I sat in bed thinking... “what am I going to do when I have a question about something or need to make my menu for the week??!!!” How Silly!!! Seriously Kate? How about using your cookbooks, a little commonsense, and an that old dusty book called an ‘encyclopedia’!!?
I’m guessing you have all been through this at least one time in your life where all of a sudden you feel dry and empty in your spiritual walk with God and you ask yourself... “what could it be!?” Every time without fail I have found some pretty sticky gunk in my heart. When you start feeling this gunk start to ooze out your mouth or even out your fingertips this is when you need to get rid of it. Get rid of it fast before it gets on others or fills you up with so much gunk you feel useless and hopeless.
I leave you with this scripture which was an encouragement to me that God will clean out the gunk that I have let sit too long and that He will revive my Spirit once again!
Isaiah 58:11
“The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.”
My conviction is this. The computer.
I have been sucked into the daily habit of checking my Facebook and email about every hour or less. I also have been pulled back towards my past struggle of wasting my time watching pointless television online. Yes, there is a balance and I am fully aware of what that balance feels like but if you are not giving yourself to God first that balance can quickly tilt to one side; the bad, unhealthy side.
I am writing this to simply verbalize and confess my sin to you all. I want to be held accountable.
Therefore, after this blog post I will be abandoning the computer because it is an impending threat to my relationship with and growth in God. I will update the blog only about Zeke and only on Kevin’s computer with his permission. I will not be using email or Facebook. I will not being searching the web for recipes, or whatever ever else. Last night I sat in bed thinking... “what am I going to do when I have a question about something or need to make my menu for the week??!!!” How Silly!!! Seriously Kate? How about using your cookbooks, a little commonsense, and an that old dusty book called an ‘encyclopedia’!!?
I’m guessing you have all been through this at least one time in your life where all of a sudden you feel dry and empty in your spiritual walk with God and you ask yourself... “what could it be!?” Every time without fail I have found some pretty sticky gunk in my heart. When you start feeling this gunk start to ooze out your mouth or even out your fingertips this is when you need to get rid of it. Get rid of it fast before it gets on others or fills you up with so much gunk you feel useless and hopeless.
I leave you with this scripture which was an encouragement to me that God will clean out the gunk that I have let sit too long and that He will revive my Spirit once again!
Isaiah 58:11
“The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.”
